[00:00.000] 作词 : Christin Patrick/Romel Moore[00:01.000] 作曲 : Christin Patrick/Romel Moore[00:28.952]And this bout the 4th time this year[00:29.837]I done thought about ending it all[00:30.676]But I'm scared to push forth on the trigger[00:33.734]In New York, with my niggas[00:34.469]We don't milly rock[00:36.072]But I feel like the source of my dance[00:37.660]It's Extorted by liquor[00:38.524]With hopes i could cover these pigeon toes[00:40.103]My dopamine levels is dipping low[00:41.950]The closeness of dreams in proximity[00:43.671]Never outweighs all the feelings i didn't show[00:45.537]My demons been throwing they C's up[00:47.383]I'm stuck in the blues my nigga[00:49.327]My peace been disrupted for weeks[00:50.631]I don't know what to do my nigga[00:52.655]Feel like I'm letting down half of my team[00:54.224]I feel like I'm Kuzma nigga[00:56.143]Sometimes I feel useless nigga[00:58.056]Ausar has been telling me lately I need to just put all my fear aside[01:00.950]Is it really "essential"[01:02.159]I wear my whole faith on my sleeve[01:03.566]Just to show i got "Fear Of God"[01:04.704]If you seen my credentials[01:06.023]Then you know that a nigga[01:07.215]Like me not for teary eyes[01:08.342]But this GROWNISH I fight on the daily[01:10.022]Is Chloe and Hailey And Yara Sharidi vibes[01:11.199]I'm like Kenya Barris[01:12.858]Knowing the fact[01:13.801]That my pen won't fail us[01:14.698]I'm sign on the dot[01:15.649]So they pay me cash[01:16.331]And pray they don't hate me[01:17.499]Like Stacy Dash[01:18.684]Every player I played with[01:19.538]Said paper's amazing[01:20.475]For building Mache[01:21.548]To display my craft[01:22.242]I'm Picasso but locked on the style[01:23.794]An apostle who's passion could topple the masters[01:25.634]A God Free to the walk cross the Nile[01:27.140]But I struggle with benching these demons above me[01:29.778]I know for a fact I'm not swole enough[01:31.315]You could tell by my ugly[01:31.844]And how much she loves me[01:33.365]My shawty deserves more to hold her up[01:35.197]Origami looks lovely[01:36.387]But baby don't trust me enough[01:37.419]To think b*****s won't fold me up[01:38.924]Moral compass is losing direction[01:40.331]Sorting conflicts[01:41.451]With ruthless aggression[01:42.428]More despondent when using affection[01:43.939]And my honesty[01:44.859]Worst than these lies[01:46.187]It's like comedy service in session[01:47.571]Every time i say we gonna be fine[01:50.412]She convinced that our worst days[01:51.380]Need some first aid[01:52.308]But she scared to apply it[01:54.347]She more so prepared for dividing[01:54.851]And this bout the 4th time this year[01:57.405]I done thought about ending it all[01:58.845]But I'm scared to push forth on the trigger[02:00.971]In New York, with my niggas[02:02.435]We don't milly rock[02:03.381]But i feel like the source of my dance[02:04.430]It's Extorted by liquor[02:05.755]With hopes i could cover these pigeons toes[02:06.987]My dopamine levels is dipping low[02:09.181]The closeness of dreams in proximity[02:11.182]Never outweighs all the feelings i didn't show[02:12.796]My demons been throwing they C's up[02:14.707]I'm stuck in the blues my nigga[02:16.411]My peace been disrupted for weeks[02:17.717]I don't know what to do my nigga[02:19.891]Feel like I'm letting down half of my team[02:21.348]I feel like I'm Kuzma nigga[02:23.333]Sometimes I feel useless nigga[02:25.550]D Book,[02:26.335]The way this sun shine[02:27.310]When they finally see nigga glory[02:28.753]Skipping my story to see the result[02:31.062]Is a shame[02:32.198]Cause i tried to share it[02:33.206]They gon say I'm like Cole[02:34.358]But imposter syndrome[02:35.273]Make me feel like Tobias Harris[02:36.310]They gonna say I birth Gold[02:37.888]But that often brings lows[02:38.934]When living like Midas Parents[02:40.828]I don't feel moved no more[02:42.350]Curb my enthusiasm[02:43.448]When I fake laugh[02:44.598]I don't feel amused no more[02:46.224]I work for the views I'm after[02:47.223]But that Drake shit[02:47.860]Ain't what I pursue no more[02:49.758]Tryna put Mizz in Seattle[02:51.436]Asia been down for the A[02:53.348]Nile want a fenced in Castle[02:54.676]Things feel different[02:56.233]When you gotta couple niggas on yo backside[02:57.964]Praying that this ship don't cap size[02:59.685]Playing with this shit will attract flies[03:01.645]Playing like the clips[03:02.600]Will just turn you Doc River[03:03.728]Every nigga is convinced you the bad guy[03:04.786]Been there done that[03:06.256]Bad Vibes[03:07.113]Still got demons from past lives[03:08.800]Feeling like everything changes the minute you seize every hour inside the clock[03:12.585]I ain't been settling lately[03:13.649]To win it[03:14.449]I need to be netting on every shot[03:16.145]Depression meddling greatly[03:17.121]To end it[03:18.185]Believe me I'm never gon let it stop where i go[03:23.325]And this bout the 4th time this year[03:24.403]I done thought about ending it all[03:25.619]But I'm scared to push forth on the..