[00:18.01]Our friendship seemed to be based on bullshit an[00:21.07]what I could do for you, homie[00:22.89]The sad fact is I'm the type of person[00:24.56]that would take two for you, homie[00:26.60]You ever give so much till a nigga can't give no more[00:30.20]Give so much of his soul that[00:37.50]want another dub from me, money?[00:38.55]You wanna drain me of every single mother****ing drop of love from me,[00:43.01]money?[00:43.40]I can feel the eyes staring at me[00:45.08]even when it's dark,[00:45.67]even when it's cold[00:47.04]I can feel Allah staring at me even though I'm marked,[00:48.06]even though I'm old[00:51.09]Y'all are just some "gimme" niggas,[00:52.58]take more off Vinnie" nigga[00:55.90]Never giving back, don't know how to act,[00:57.10]Just a bunch of shitty nigga[00:58.04]Gradually night goes on,[01:01.07]gradually life goes on[01:02.20]It's tearing me apart,[01:03.06]never really thought that I'd have to right this wrong[01:06.02]I don't think I'm anti-love,[01:07.55]I just think I'm anti-y'all[01:10.01]I just think I'm anti-every-nigga-tryna-plan-my-fal[01:14.03]I was never planning to be great,[01:16.09]something that began as a mistake[01:18.07]But me being me,[01:19.01]mama always told me I should always share what's on the plate[01:22.07]And just waking up is enough of a struggle today[01:29.08]And most of these phonies that's close to me push me away[01:36.07]But there ain't no reason I'm keeping this enemy deep in my veins[01:44.01]Cause I love the pain[01:49.04]And just waking up is enough of a struggle,[01:52.05]I don't wanna deal with the darkness[01:54.01]Have a mother****er laid up by himself tryna heal from the conflic[01:57.07]Ever have someone close to you[01:59.08]tell you that you really can't when you can?[02:01.30]I wouldn't know nothing 'bout that bullshit an[02:04.22]that's the stamp of a man[02:05.43]And the same one who blamed me,[02:07.56]the same one who defamed me[02:09.03]Can't make his own cash,[02:11.02]can't wipe his own ass like a baby[02:13.09]Everything is past or it's light,[02:15.02]everything is passion and hate[02:16.03]Everything is everything and I don't think I need to keep a track of the date[02:21.04]Everybody take what I offer,[02:23.02]everybody play like a pauper[02:25.08]The same ones with they hands out,[02:27.10]be the same ones that hate when I prosper[02:29.06]Tryna be a gentleman of sorts,[02:31.07]tryna be a better man, of course[02:33.09]Tryna set a living,[02:34.10]understand that I'ma always be a veteran of loss[02:37.07]What's the physiology of love?[02:39.01]What's the physiology of pain?[02:41.09]What's the physiology of every single person that will probably get to reign?[02:45.07]I don't like when liberty is wrong,[02:47.04]I don't like when misery is gone[02:48.01]I can tell all y'all one thing:[02:50.03]all y'all gone' miss me when I'm gone[02:52.02]And just waking up is enough of a struggle today[03:00.09]And most of these phonies that's close to me push me away[03:07.05]But there ain't no reason I'm keeping this enemy deep in my veins[03:15.03]Cause I love the pain[03:20.02]And just waking up is enough of a struggle today[03:27.01]And most of these phonies that's close to me push me away[03:34.01]But there ain't no reason I'm keeping this enemy deep in my veins[03:42.02]Cause I love the pain