'Lost?' (Secret Diary Vol.1) - ChaChe.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : ChaChe
[00:01.000] 作曲 : ChaChe
[00:02.442]Yo
[00:05.693]Just wanted to
[00:08.935]I don’t know...write down some thoughts
[00:14.691]Hope you can get me
[00:16.432]Well, hope you don’t
[00:21.681]This beat is making me sad
[00:22.935]The rhythm is taking me back
[00:24.191]Every time I wanna take a ****ing break it relapsed
[00:26.941]I don’t know, maybe I’m mad
[00:28.197]In a peaceful way, am I bad?
[00:29.692]Cuz after all who the **** could I blame this shit at? (blame this shit at)
[00:33.200]My 2021, everything is just ****ed up
[00:35.936]Chances came and went I, would always **** it up
[00:38.434]This shit that I’m put through, can’t seem to get myself drummed up
[00:40.929]To sum up, this influx of pressure’s so large can’t get up, nah
[00:43.453]I was a lone vessel out at sea, now stranded on the coast
[00:45.933]Used to have this lighthouse that beamed, now my path’s no longer shone
[00:48.695]A man can be destroyed but not defeated. Is it true? To be frank I don’t know
[00:51.439]Maybe I’m not man enough to see, I’m freezing left out in the cold
[00:54.187]Alone and helpless, but even worse I’m so sober that I am
[00:56.935]Maybe fate is just something nobody has control over
[00:59.678]When I go over my past year
[01:01.186]I’ve fallen face down flat on ground, no chance for redemption nor rollover
[01:04.688]The show’s over
[01:05.695]/Bridge
[01:15.941]Since 2006, never been so down in the dumps
[01:18.683]Who would’ve thought that I’m fifteen but I’m already drunk
[01:21.179]From the bitters and sorrows that literally tear up my life
[01:23.938]Still having trouble sleeping at night, but no more tears left to cry
[01:26.682]Now I ain’t melodramatic not the ‘madman in the attic’
[01:29.680]Cuz if you’ve had what I had then you’d prolly get all this madness
[01:32.186]as well, and now I’m feeling kinda numb like a ****ing addict
[01:34.935]Can’t pull myself out of it the volume is thanatophoric
[01:37.680]It got me busted and bent, can no longer muster up strength
[01:40.431]Still got studies to tend to, but can’t nudge my mind in
[01:43.194]Relationships are hard to handle too, and I lost a couple good friends
[01:45.933]Some dreams collapsed, and now I’m limping on the rubble that remains
[01:48.702]But hey, maybe it’s not all bad, at times I got luck on my side
[01:51.682]Stepped up in my game, and prolly met the love of my life
[01:54.431]It even seemed that everything was coming up with the tides
[01:56.928]Well guess I was just too optimistic visions crush it’s goodbye
[01:59.948]Nobody knows what the **** it is like to have emotions tucked up inside
[02:02.685]And can’t open up my own mind to no one, they just do not identify
[02:06.187]So my pain inside, densifies, intensifies
[02:08.447]Gotta keep it to myself take it right into the coffin when I die
[02:11.190]Were there a time machine, I’d gladly jump back
[02:13.184]I ain’t hoping to change shit, just wanna recapture the past
[02:15.947]Cherish the good memories knowing they gone and they gone for good
[02:18.929]It’s sad but true, nothing left to do, just a hundred years of solitude
[02:21.937]/Bridge
[02:32.432]Gotta get up, pull shit from dirt and piss on Earth let ‘em have it
[02:35.181]When life hands me middle fingers I’ll flip the bird right back at it
[02:38.188]Rip the worst pages of my diary, ignite ‘em let ‘em burn to ashes
[02:40.930]May’ve hit the curb, but it’s time to move on, all the twists and turns I’ve passed it
[02:43.951]But moving on doesn’t mean that I’m leaving this shit behind
[02:46.190]I’mma paint them red and pin them to the wall as a reminder
[02:49.190]That I’m bound to come back to deal with all this unsettled business
[02:51.940]**** the things that got me pissed, make it up to people that I have missed
[02:54.448]Never thought I’d ever dump any of this shit in a song
[02:56.942]But when I was ****ed up, disputed, it was music I built it on
[02:59.690]Every time I Lost Myself, the Headlights they guided me back
[03:02.432]And now I’m Not Afraid I’ve Gone Through Changes and I’m feeling Strong
[03:05.195]-er Than I was, so I’m saying thank you to all my injuries
[03:08.184]To all the friends and enemies that god has sent to me
[03:10.930]To all the pinnacles and nadirs I was meant to reach
[03:13.199]And to my fate and destiny I know it’s meant to be
[03:15.677]Eventually I gotta get snap of those sad nights
[03:17.440]Gotta stop reminiscing ‘bout the past times
[03:18.929]Put some faith in myself, I’ve been raised from the hell
[03:20.427]All those surging waves can’t get me capsized
[03:21.695]Still lonely and cold? Well that’s right
[03:23.191]I’ll produce heat be my own lamp light
[03:24.692]Still caught between a rock and a hard place
[03:25.931]But I’ll be going up like stalagmites
[03:27.430]And I’m
[03:28.680]saying hello, to 2022
[03:31.944]Life goes on, you know
[03:34.191]And there’s still so much to do
[03:38.177]yeah