[00:09.810]Had to question everything I stand for[00:12.020]Still purple rain and maintaining through the downpour[00:15.790]Cold night sleeping on the ground floor[00:18.580]I'on hate my father I just wish he was around more[00:21.150]Nanny came on a visit and she just broke down[00:24.240]She says she looks at me as if I was her own child[00:26.910]And only I can choose the road I'm gonna go down[00:29.850]So I know I'm on my own when it goes down[00:33.100]But sometimes I can't cope G I can't lie[00:36.190]Cah from young I been addicted to this fast life[00:39.170]Like I swear we were so high last night[00:42.380]And we didn't make it home 'til like half five[00:45.340]And this is real shit this ain't just the weed talking[00:48.380]Every time I get away I hear a fiend calling[00:51.320]I spend money I ain't got like a remortgage[00:54.050]I ain't slept for days feeling like I'm sleepwalking[00:57.060]When I'm just tryna dodge another sentence[00:59.710]Stan Tookie Williams I'm just looking for redemption[01:02.750]Hoodrat b*****s holla looking for attention[01:05.550]Snakes hissing in the distance and I can sense 'em[01:08.530]Fake man wanna smile, say they're down to ride[01:11.780]On the low I know the same man wanna **** my wife[01:14.740]In the hood there ain't nothing but some ****ing s***s and liars[01:17.800]But I'll clutch and rise it you could get touched I'm riding[01:20.420]Looking for a Judas 44's, tre 8's, dottys and some Rugers[01:25.040]OT grow yard ciggies and some jewelers[01:28.380]Living for today like we ain't got no futures[01:31.150]And I don't really wanna change[01:32.730]Seen so much shit, some shit I don't even wanna say[01:35.730]'99, they said my mummy went on holiday[01:38.780]I found out that my mummy was in Holloway[01:41.750]But home is where the heart is, so I'm loving where I live[01:44.550]And I know most man never struggled like I did[01:47.470]I was coming home hungry weren't nothing in the fridge[01:50.420]So I had to hit the road like something's gotta give[01:53.410]'05, me and Dizz hitting kitties outta Holborn[01:56.610]Chicks couldn't grasp why I wouldn't show emotion[01:59.440]Had to tell that b***h, chill, I live among some vultures[02:02.360]And a home ain't a home when your homes broken[02:05.320]And a home ain't a home when your homes broken[02:09.320]And then it gets harder[02:11.230]Feltham, Chelmsford, Aylesbury, Parva[02:14.210]And I got some youts that need looking after[02:16.970]Two little girls that will never know their father[02:20.230]'Cause daddy was a criminal, mummy couldn't cope[02:23.230]So daddy went jail, left mummy on her own[02:26.030]I was talking to the mandem they're like when you coming home?[02:29.180]Just keep rapping it could happen trust me you can blow[02:32.050]I gotta trap cah it's the only life I know[02:35.090]And my nanny's always telling me as if I don't know[02:38.240]And now I heard it's action what defines the man[02:40.990]Blowing macaroni got me thinking 'bout this life I've had[02:44.270]And I'm just thinking 'bout this life I live[02:46.480]As I'm getting older had to question would I die for this?[02:49.480]Man are riding life in bin (la-la-la-la)[02:51.100]Shit the case is in the Old Bailey[02:53.030]Separated mice from men, from young I learnt don't talk[02:56.370]You know the game, you get caught that's your own fault[02:59.360]Did my first sentence as a baby boy[03:01.560]Born in the 90s, ****ing with them 80s boys[03:04.510]Olders put me on road, back when it was all love[03:07.440]Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us[03:10.920]Road taught me everything, teacher never taught us[03:14.170]But don't front like roads something that you're built for[03:16.910]'Cause you could die for something you wouldn't kill for[03:20.450]Mad years behind that steel door[03:23.180]Mad years on my strip mummy's still poor[03:25.830]Wait there's still more I'm trapping 24's G[03:28.890]Up and down in and out 'til I got sore feet[03:31.850]'04 to '06 I never saw sleep[03:34.960]Raw B had me counting bags at 14[03:37.610]'07, I left the crown court free[03:40.680]Back and forth on Feltham for like four weeks[03:46.970]'08, I was back behind that door G[03:49.690]Firearms charge I rid the whole four peak[03:52.810]But I rid that, the life you d**kheads rap about I live that[03:56.400]Pebble down a big batch[03:59.620]G-star pack and told him flip that[04:02.190]I told him take three and bring six back[04:05.260]And T's been gone for a minute now I miss akh[04:07.620]And I miss C and I miss whites[04:10.730]On my kids' life, every day I risk mine[04:13.750]I'm just tryna live right shit I gotta do wrong[04:17.000]Couldn't see you walking two steps with my shoes on[04:20.110]Ratchet always told me re-up before your foods gone[04:25.840]Ratchet always told me re-up before your foods gone[04:30.900]