[00:00.000] 作词 : Lauren Ruth Ward[00:01.000] 作曲 : Lauren Ruth Ward[00:15.349]If I saw you in person, I'd beg for you back[00:18.360]Scream, cry about all the good that we had[00:22.600]Your gaslight would burn all night on full blast while I beg you to listen and hand you your ass[00:29.101]Your backbone would bend so much it would snap[00:32.343]My reason wouldn't fix your past[00:37.103]You made up in your mind, you can only trust yourself[00:40.347]Let me know how that works out for you in your living hell[00:44.845]If you'd just give in to your attainable needs[00:49.340]So us mind-reading fools wouldn't have to kill your disease[00:52.849]And it creeps up on me like a horrible anxiety dream except I'm awake believing[01:05.584]Only breathing is keeping me living[01:14.338]I guess forever to you meant a means to an end[01:18.088]While my forevеr love drug is gifting me bends[01:21.602]I yеll to myself as I'm making your bed[01:24.344]Turn off the house alarm but not the one in my head[01:27.587]I go out to the front yard where we planted fruit trees[01:31.098]That will feed your next lover the vitamin C[01:34.098]I'll be up on that hill with too much to say[01:37.344]Unconditional love making me stay[01:43.607]And I think of that moment, that night, that day, when you beg “please come here, please stay”[01:55.589]With the ring and a spiel, you moved the motion so I had to steal[02:07.503]You loved me with your good moods, attacked me with your old wounds[02:10.693]I guess your passive aggression was still your best, babe[02:20.689]But it creeped on us and never now seems so obvious[02:26.194]More than ever I'm grieving[02:33.198]Only breathing is keeping us living[02:40.439]You create in your mind that people don't like you[02:44.202]You laugh at the Pisces but truly it haunts you[02:49.437]You think you'd know better, you've done this your whole life[02:51.688]You’re less than insane 'cause you don't expect change[02:54.701]Your comfort and sadness makes life what it is[02:57.207]Can't convince you of your happiness[03:00.186]Even if I did, you'd find cruel of my intent[03:03.696]Make it your home, your victim kingdom[03:07.192]Just you on your throne[03:09.944]No love[03:12.707]No love[03:15.689]Didn't creep up on you[03:19.691]It's a choice you carefully chose[03:22.686]Quit wavering, I can feel you retreating[03:29.433]Only breathing is keeping you living[03:34.196]Okay, here we go[03:41.194]You swear I don't appreciate you[03:46.684]Well, I don't use sex as thank you[03:48.446]Sure bent over backwards to be available for you[03:51.435]I was there from the get-go[03:53.186]I'm not your trophy or your coattail[03:55.453]Fame must have changed your point of view[03:59.439]I'm the writer not the muse[04:04.952]Better popstar than partner[04:06.688]Now you got all you wanted[04:08.186]You can pay off your problems ‘cause your ego won't bargain[04:14.081]Play me like a melody, made me your enemy[04:15.325]Cause blame gives you the courage to act on infidelity[04:18.826]You're slave for the new[04:20.084]Clumsy love needs a fix[04:21.824]It's not the new one's fault, the captain steers the ship[04:24.587]It's predictable not special, that skin serves its devil[04:28.077]A true lust romance is never successful[04:35.078]We're the perfect example[04:40.573]And all jokes aside, I'm wishing you good life[04:48.828]Remember this time to let it honesty guide[04:54.325]I guess we really did try, it feels right to say goodbye[05:02.075]It's rarer these days, but when you cross my mind[05:09.828]It creeps up on me, that romanticization disease[05:17.330]And then I break on healing[05:23.090]I'm breathing, I'm free, I am living