[00:00.00] 作词 : Lizah/Oceanlee[00:01.00] 作曲 : Lizah/Oceanlee[00:03.13]编曲:邱霖Big L[00:07.13]hey[00:07.86]嘿[00:09.81]I wrote this song just to myself[00:10.88]这首歌写给自己[00:13.90]It’s all about the things I’ve been through[00:17.27]它关于所有经历过的一切[00:17.64]No matter good or bad[00:19.84]无论好坏与否[00:20.25]Easy or tough[00:21.34]无论困难与否[00:23.38]Enjoy or suffer[00:27.80]无论挣扎与否[00:28.36]Look[00:29.79]Here it is[00:30.24]送给生活和经历[00:30.96]I wrote this crap to the lies in my eyes[00:31.78]这首歌写给眼中看到的所有的谎言[00:32.05]With you never gonna ************* understood my type[00:33.02]你至今无法理解我自己独特的风格[00:33.70]You and I we stuck different side[00:34.35]我们身处于不一样的世界[00:35.41]Always trying our best in order to survive[00:36.02]都在拼了命的苟活[00:37.34]I used to not see my world in my hand[00:38.12]我曾经无法掌控我自己的生活[00:39.20]That space I step in felt like a freak[00:40.09]我踏入每一寸空间都让自己觉得格格不入[00:41.00]And hands are sweaty brain’s shutting[00:43.14]with me suffocating mentally desperated[00:44.11]汗水浸湿头脑空白不能呼吸的绝望[00:45.19]No I will not I will never surrender[00:46.02]但我绝不会投降[00:46.98]Even if you tape my mouth[00:47.61]就算你封住我的嘴[00:48.49]Then push to me to the edge of the cliff[00:49.67]把我推向悬崖绝壁[00:50.56]The middle finger is still up in your face within a milimeter and show you what is the rage[00:52.26]我的中指依旧会竖立你面前毫米之间向你诠释怒火二字的含义[00:55.01]Saved my own life can’t[00:55.65]Let myself die[00:56.72]我要拯救我自己[00:57.09]Before the gun shot lead me for a ride[00:57.88]在被击垮之前[00:58.31]Then no one can stop me from coming back[00:59.50]等我再归来便无人可挡[01:00.03]Stuck in memory[01:00.59]被困于回忆中[01:00.97]Lost in melody[01:01.50]迷失在旋律里[01:01.97]Everything in my brain turns to fantasy[01:02.52]脑中的一切变为幻想[01:03.67]Eyes closed hands clutched feeling so weak[01:04.30]紧闭双眼握紧双拳我却感到虚弱无力[01:06.41]then lights on wipe off its all ******* dream[01:06.99]然后灯光照进一切闪过都是一场梦[01:07.55]It’s not the thing you dream of being a king[01:08.14]我不在梦想成为什么伟大的人不败的人[01:09.32]But you gotta stand up fight it do not flee[01:11.16]Away from the reality that controls your fear[01:12.54]但我一定不会再逃 就算再残酷的现实我也会一直站在原地迎战到底[01:13.09]Or you dumbass get out and find some trick[01:14.02]你们这些垃圾可以耍耍小聪明找找捷径[01:14.93]At the age of eight[01:15.33]八岁时[01:15.80]I see the hate[01:16.22]我第一次理解了憎恨[01:32.11]I just want a place to live in[01:33.38]我只需要一个地方让我好好生活[01:33.67]some holes to sneak in[01:34.44]一个角落让我躲避 逃离 这一切[01:34.80]and somebody right here for me that i can somehow[01:36.29]一些人让我能够[01:36.55]believe in[01:37.86]相信[01:38.82]Oh ****[01:40.93]This crap reminds me of my waterbottle full of pee after sports class in grade five[01:47.49]The transparent bottle was entirely in yellow[01:49.32]这些垃圾回忆让我想起了小学五年级时体育课后我的透明水壶里装的黄色液体[01:50.94]对[01:51.95]后来我知道了那是谁的尿[01:52.92]h h[01:52.38]**** it[01:59.79]When I am twenty years old[02:00.29]二十岁了[02:00.85]I thought I should be bold[02:01.32]我应该长大了勇敢了[02:02.10]And that’s when I have Kz and rest of you all[02:04.05]Charlie Marcus Tammy Balint[02:06.04]and Cyh in my soul[02:06.87]遇见了凯子,佳翔,黄轩,楚迪,小豪还有Balint以后[02:07.49]It’s been seriously tough[02:08.87]一步一步走过来不是很轻松[02:09.54]You guys helped me a lot[02:10.16]但还好有你们[02:10.63]Given me the power to again stood up[02:11.25]给了我重新站起来的力量和勇气[02:11.76]It’s all a sudden rush[02:12.33]就那么一瞬间[02:12.68]I don’t appreciate the god[02:13.28]我不感谢上帝[02:13.53]But thank you all for given a powerful shut[02:14.30]但我庆幸有你们在[02:14.77]So I know[02:15.23]所以我清楚[02:15.49]It’s freaking cold[02:16.31]现在天很冷[02:16.58]The coat I wear ain’t gonna make me warm[02:17.79]再厚的大衣也只是一时身体上的温暖[02:18.35]What if you stand by fist to my eye[02:19.82]再我回头看到了你们之后[02:20.23]lit a fire up in my lonely sword[02:21.11]一切都变了[02:23.14]I don’t need no lord[02:30.33]不变的是你们榜首不停更替[02:31.11]不怕争议只要增益[02:31.67]封闭空气血蒸气升起[02:32.96]兄弟还是凶器[02:33.41]背后刀子锋利[02:34.28]抚琴京城称帝[02:35.15]红花还会屹立[02:36.11]生死状上登记[02:37.19]红药水在黑夜里镇定[02:38.96]被消费被推卸的魂灵[02:40.68]最高贵最卑劣的人性[02:42.69]在你头顶上三尺有神明[02:44.52]红酒灌入的眼眸布成血丝[02:46.16]劣质的人类确实缺失节制[02:48.41]他咬牙切齿想要劫持你的思维[02:50.25]而我却用前半生来为你写诗[02:52.16]还记得你们曾经对我蔑视[02:53.98]像是在夜空中燃烧的烈日[02:55.76]写出不理智的词太迟[02:57.44]是枚来不及递出的戒指[02:59.53]我想要祈求上帝[03:01.32]想要放下笔头抗议[03:03.12]可我知道为了你[03:04.13]身后的空无一人[03:05.13]是我没有理由放弃[03:07.02]在回忆里头忘记[03:08.59]是我梦寐以求浪迹[03:10.49]天涯远离尘世[03:11.64]社会乌烟瘴气[03:12.67]如何金盆洗手套利[03:14.36]我梦见[03:14.92]走入废弃城堡[03:15.85]如画锐利棱角[03:16.67]躯壳横扫[03:17.29]是灵魂寻找[03:18.32]解锁的韵脚涂满[03:19.15]血做的唇膏[03:20.03]把懒惰杀死[03:20.89]把怯懦给焚烧[03:21.87]烛光摇曳残影[03:22.73]高脚杯声唤醒[03:23.64]那些沉睡的动物[03:24.71]再次掉入陷阱[03:25.77]掉入金钱仙境[03:26.60]是封信函天命[03:27.50]人做天看的协议[03:28.43]早被自然签订[03:29.35]就让我[03:30.69]复活后诉说[03:31.45]哭过的怒火[03:32.18]背过的污浊[03:34.28]折磨中渡过[03:35.00]落魄中捕捉[03:36.08]懦弱中蹉跎[03:37.71]就让我[03:38.58]复活后诉说[03:39.24]哭过的怒火[03:40.17]背过的污浊[03:42.21]折磨中渡过[03:42.94]落魄中捕捉[03:43.80]懦弱中蹉跎