Ch 3: Ballista (Dear Aria, I Love Myself) (feat. Lenval Brown) - Vylet Pony/Lenval Brown.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Vylet Pony
[00:00.220] 作曲 : Vylet Pony
[00:00.441]Warm tears disappear at once into disheveled shrouds of faded eyeshadow. Then, slither down your cheeks, and into your mouth.​
[00:12.123]Fragrances of bitter salt permeate your laboured breaths. You sense, distantly, the gentle embrace of your pegasus companion.​
[00:23.092]What do I do man? What do I do, I’ve been trying so hard to just get over Dub.​
[00:28.450]What am I missing? I don't understand why this is so hard...
[00:31.477]Love is a pain. An endeavour. Temporary.​
[00:36.377]But love is necessary, and inevitable.​
[00:41.297]The self is permutated by it. Thus, it is necessary to wield it shrewdly
[00:47.604]I just wanna love, I don’t know what this feeling is, like, my heart aches. What do I do with it? I'm such a bitch...
[00:55.399]Understand this, and this above all other things.​
[01:00.128]Before you can truly love anyone else. Before you can fall in love with the world itself. You must love yourself first.​
[01:10.656]How the **** do I love myself when I’m so awful?
[01:14.792]Your conscious experience is filtered through your brain, and your brain alone.​
[01:20.297]To dare and ask these questions to yourself indicates a primal desire to be better, and to heal.​
[01:29.779]Submerged beneath cynicism and irony, your heart lusts for the ordinary and the sensory.​
[01:38.496]The prickle of the grass beneath your hooves. A distant chatter on a safe day.​
[01:44.496]Stifling a giggle with a friend, in delight of the absurd.​
[01:49.076]The thrill of the trickshot. The thrill of the game.​
[01:53.442]Everything that you experience is because you have chosen to get up again in service to that will.​
[02:00.588]When you are all that you have, endeavour to be something that you love. Then, love yourself.​
[02:10.516]Nothing else matters. There is absolutely no other way to live. And, you must live.​
[02:20.851]Cause it ends up hurting everyone around me when I'm so mean to myself, and I don't need to be.​
[02:29.541]And it's like, I live in my own world. So I have to love myself because—
[02:35.752]Nothing truly matters until you decide that it does.​
[02:39.711]And baby, does it feel good to love yourself.​
[02:43.710]You must only allow yourself that freedom.​
[02:46.810]Because, my own mind creates the world. It’s all about the game because I make the rules.​
[02:54.579]Yes. And, it has always been this way.​
[02:58.877]And to love myself, I don't have to win.​
[03:01.745]I don't have to be perfect, I just have to keep going.​
[03:05.901]I have to make new rules.​
[03:08.016]And I must keep changing.​