That One Time - Rapsody.mp3

[00:00.000] 作词 : Juwan Elcock/Marlanna Evans
[00:01.000] 作曲 : Juwan Elcock/Marlanna Evans
[00:05.124]I gotta call my daddy back
[00:09.435]I'll hit him in a minute, I'll do this first
[00:11.276]I think the most beautiful shit is when you can be the most honest with yourself
[00:17.043]Like that's when you, I think that's when you the most free, when you can be vulnerable
[00:20.596]And allow yourself to not be perfect, ya dig?
[00:23.760]Just be human and shit
[00:26.360]Yeah
[00:27.001]That's the work I've been doing anyway
[00:30.138]Ya gotta dig deep in that shit
[00:31.592]It's taken some time, but we getting there
[00:33.771]It ain't easy though, for real
[00:37.044]It only took one time, I came out different
[00:40.085]I'm just like Gloria
[00:43.182]Except my smile missing
[00:44.945]I was experimenting
[00:46.432]I been known **** lie, I found out, so do women
[00:49.690]You were my one time, I came out different
[00:52.540]My smile gone, I'm turned out
[00:54.677]Now I can't listen to those songs
[00:56.827]Memories come wit 'em, hard to revisit
[00:59.041]Hard to count on love, my heart broke into a bunch of digits
[01:02.149]In the mirror asking my inner child what I'm missing
[01:04.947]What's wrong wit' me?
[01:08.330]That's what's wrong wit' me
[01:10.139]Felt x'd out by my ex's and Momma's wisdom
[01:13.120]Saying never marry while laying next to a married ****
[01:16.265]Knowing if my brother-in-law cheated on my sister
[01:19.484]I'd be pissed wit' 'em
[01:21.044]I'm such a hypocrite
[01:22.521]I never baptized, I would've been disfellowshipped
[01:25.425]If Jehovah's Witnesses witnessed the things I did
[01:28.918]I'm such a hypocrite, insecurity
[01:31.057]I never felt socially accepted or wanted physically
[01:34.143]Got me changing, experimenting
[01:36.160]I fell in love with her
[01:37.454]Now I'm smiling different
[01:38.897]Am I hurt? Turned out?
[01:40.320]Or maybe I'm still triggered?
[01:41.953]Never felt wanted or pretty by no ****
[01:46.137]It only took one time, and one mo'
[01:48.927]Two, three times, and 'fore long, we in relationship
[01:51.726]My thoughts debating wit'
[01:53.195]Who I am? Who I'm living for?
[01:54.791]My parents, pastors, my demons
[01:56.428]My fears, my nieces, my nephews, my fans
[01:58.527]Clinging to society
[02:00.034]Who always labeled me, but can't define me quite entirely
[02:03.181]Tiredly, I'm overcome wit' it all
[02:05.068]Opened my vault, found my value in my truth and my flaws
[02:08.460]It only took one time for me to question it all
[02:11.263]For real
[02:14.467]You gotta look in that mirror
[02:17.205]And ask those questions to you, and only you
[02:19.201]'Cause you're the only one that can answer 'em
[02:21.381]Ya know?
[02:23.771]They call it, I think, uh
[02:26.859]In the medical field, I think the professional term is to unblock that child
[02:31.611]Or even unblock that trauma, or
[02:35.179]I don't know you just gotta audit with yourself
[02:38.620]You gotta be okay with, just being, being imperfect
[02:41.729]Life is a process, we just going through it
[02:47.260]Matter fact, yo where my phone at, yo
[02:54.642]Alright, I'm done